Over the last week much has been brought to light. I praise Him for redemption, sanctification, purpose, and unmerited favor. I truly believe a man's value can be measured by how his "friends" deal with him. Just want to apologize to apologize for my former self, and the destruction he left in his wake. This week has truly displayed how wretched and fraudulent I really was.
No way can I justify the past, my actions or words. My constant prayer is that He'll give you the ability to forgive me. From henceforth expect more of me, I know I sure do. I was a fraud, and that's why I guess no one was transparent with me. Guess that's maybe the reason why people felt they couldn't be their true self to me. Still even today, I know many of you that I hold deeply in my heart don't feel that you can be open with me about anything. For the record, NEVER would I judge. Now, I might budge you in the proper direction. Mostly though, I'm just here to love on you...walk with you....and be a true friend.
You know the toughest part of change? It has to be done alone. Not in the spiritual sense, because Lord knows it's all Him. AMEN. No one else can decide to make a change for you, no one else can truly take part in the change. I must bear witness to the fact that most people don't acknowledged the change. To others, you never do change. Sobering, huh? Now that's not a blanket statement, some will accept your change wholeheartedly. Just seems like the one's you want to take notice the most, are so fed up they turn a blind eye.
Here's the awesome part, it reveals your true friends. In a very direct,"take it as it is" manner. You bible scholars know this verse; "For the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts, and intents of the heart." (Hebrews 4:12 NKJV) AMEN. Yet don't neglect the second-edge it refers to. That's the one that's been shredding me up all week.
We know Jesus is the Living Word, so when you invite Him to take over....this is the type of surgery He's going to perform. It's great advising others, praying for their needs, and being able to see all of life's ills. No one thing.....everything you see, say, hear, also applies to you. His revelations and blessings are meant to edify the body, most importantly to glorify the Father. Before you can administer the balm though, you've got to use it for yourself. Do me a favor, all the expectations you have for everyone else.....turn them on yourself. It will make you a much better person, that's what I've been doing for the last 4 years. Let me know how it works out for you.
Before I go I just want to say I love you to my friends. Thanks for sticking with me through the hard times. Thanks for teaching me how to be a good friend. Thanks for being a physical representation of my best friend.....JESUS.
Be Blessed Be Faithful